Free At Last By Simon Macbeth, Chapter 10: 3 of 4

Simon Macbeth doesn’t think I’ve ever been in love with anyone. Ella has been on that pedestal, so high up no one can ever reach her. No matter who I get involved with in my life, no other girl could knock her down, simply because I’d spent years building Ella up so high in my mind.

Ella was 23 old then and she’ll be a 35-year old woman now. I know I’m now 30, but there’s just no way I’d get involved with someone who was that old. The girls that I generally find attractive are around the age Ella was when I was at Butlin’s with her. Maybe that’s just coincidence.

It was a funny thought to imagine her being that age. You meet people all the way through your life and remember them as they were the last time you saw them. You don’t consider that people have their own lives away from you and grow up and change as people while you’re not with them. I often think of what might have happened with Ella and me if I’d gone back to Butlin’s in February and we’d started up where we’d left off. She might not have wanted to know me, we might have gone out for a while and then everything fizzled out, or we might be married with 10 kids. Who knows?

I regret not taking my feelings for Ella further, but then a change in the way I lived my life then would have meant I would be a completely different person today. It is a regret of mine, but then again it’s not. The worst thing you can do with your life is to miss chances and never know what might have been. I’ve never really done that. Even with Ella, I gave life my best shot while I had the chance. She knew I liked her and we had a relationship, if only for a few days. There are many of you reading this book that will have never even asked the girl/boy you liked out in the first place and still harbour those regrets.

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